Confession: I'm a negligent blogger

My last post was made just days before my hip replacement surgery.  Since my surgery I have been concentrating on my physical therapy.  I can say one thing.  I feel better than I have in years!  Through this experience I have discovered a few things.

Our worst enemy

Growing up fat I faced a lot of judgement that led to feelings of hurt or self doubt.  We moved to a new town when I was in the second grade.  That pivotal point led me to finding what I could always count on.  Be it to console me when hurt, when I felt I had no friends, when lonely.  I was treated really badly by schoolmates.  Made to feel an outcast, but my worst enemy was much closer.  My worst enemy was me.  Could you be your own enemy?  I'm opening up to show you how I was my own enemy and as you read, please revaluate your life to determine if whatever obstacles you face are the result of your own sabotage.  You may not realize you are sabotaging yourself, I didn't.  Once you realize it, changes can be made that will turn your life around and make you happier than you have ever been.  If it can happen to me, it can happen to you too.

Head Hunger

Oh head hunger how I hate thee.  Right now I feel as if you are my biggest nemesis.  You won today, but this is just a battle, not the war.  You crept up on me and you bit me in the brain, and like a fool I followed you.  Yes, I needed that Atkins Endulge Brownie.  I also needed those two Atkins Peanut Butter Cups.  Yeah and I needed a huge hole in my head. 

No, what I really need is to find a better way to deal with head hunger.

Changes ahead

Although I have been reluctant to have change in my past, experience has shown me that change call be a good thing.  I'm currently working on some additional features to the blog.  If they work out it will hopefully be helpful to several people.  If not then I'm learning stuff for the future.  That's the only way to look at it.

So here's what's being added.......

Thank Goodness that is over!

The holiday season isn't always the best season for me.  I neglected too much during the holidays so I could try to make sure we had a really good Christmas.  I'm somewhat anal that way.  I think it's because in the past I haven't been the greatest person, so I find myself overcompensating and working very hard to try to make things perfect.

Sometimes it works, sometimes I fail.  I think I did a ok job this year but I had somewhat of a writer's block.  Or I just didn't give a shit, your choice

I Have Gotten off Track and Depression Season Begins

I suspected that it would happen.  I'm at another stall and part of it is my fault.  It's the holidays fault.  It's a hodgepodge of faults.  This is a hard time of the year.   While there are some who think it's a wonderful time of year there are those of us who try really hard to be positive and upbeat.  I thought I was doing good but the only thing I was good at was fooling myself.

I am like Cher

If you have ever been to a Cher concert you know that every now and then she jokingly (or maybe not) talks about how good it is to be Cher. Sometimes I feel like I am emulating Cher in my life right now. It is so good and I am so happy that all I want to do is tell people how good it is and to help people smile.  Then something goes wrong.  I sometime think it's a face slap to say "Get a grip!"